Thursday, February 5, 2009

Showing sum luv

I love this free style, in case you dont know... it's Red Cafe and I'm showing him sum love xoxo....Its MOVINNNNN'
Tell me what u think~

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

The Real Life


Its been a while.... and Since I seem to have Gained more followers, Thanks newbies, I figured that its time for an update! I just came back from NY bout a week ago and it wasn't one of my best trips. I mean it started great but, somewhere in the middle it all came crashing down. Unfortunately, I wont get into details about the bullshit because, I'm in the middle of repairing shit that I could have possibly damaged.


Moving right along, let me just address that I absolutely HATE groupies..smh...Like where do these extra desperate bitches come from? Where do they breed them at? I just don't get it.. Note to Groupies, Kill yourself..the shit is pathetic.


Now Since its a recession I've decided to become a cocktail waitress..I start sometime next week at this new club in the A! I have never been a waitress before so wish me luck!!! I'm ready for it but, nervous at the same time. Jay doesn't think that I should do it because it's at a strip club but, I have to get on my super grind for myself because, I can't sit and wait for someone else. I have been chillen for long enough and it's time for me to get right!! I feel like since I moved to the A a lot of shit has went down hill and trying to climb back up is hell.. But its all apart of growing up and taking on real responsibility. I was living with my parents very comfortable, no real bills by far, all I had to do was attend school and work. So I decided to make a "grown up" decision and move to another state and start taking on real responsibility. As soon as I got a taste of responsibility I began to dig myself in a serious hole, not realizing that it's all on me now!! Some people may look at me and admire what they see on the outside but, little do you know what goes on within...Myspace and Facebook only depict happy times. Not whats real, Life consist of ups and downs which, people seem to forget to disclose. Everyone wants to make it seem like their life is peachy keen and the sun couldn't shine brighter on there side of the fence. Behind the facade is the real shit that we try so hard to not let surface. Now don't get me wrong, I keep the faith and always try to look on the positive side of the situation but, sometimes you have to break down to grow up... Lets just say I'm at that point! Grateful for what I have while striving for what I want! Keeping God 1st is a must!


Thanks for stopping by, Just A real piece of pie...

xoxo Jilly

Thursday, January 15, 2009

**VEGAS, LA, AND HIM**

SO I just returned from a little trip with someone special that I have written about in a previous blog. I was supposed to celebrate my new year with him but I had too much going on at the time. So I made a little trip out to the West coast to spend time with him(lets call him Jay)... So Monday he flew me out to Vegas and of course we ate good and partied hard... Ate at stacks he gambled I watched then partied the night away at club Jet...The night was great until this one chick asked me did I want to share him for the night?? EXCUSE ME?? WTF??? where they doing that at?? I maintained my composure and dismissed her with a simple "FUCK NO" because, clearly this simple drunk chick wasn't worth me loosing it over...But, she had some nerve, this is no 3 way party and we damn sure were not promoting one! now to the left of me There was a lot going on and I'm sure she joined the action ..no need to touch on that...barely got 4 hours of sleep and then we were off to catch a flight to LA...I'm no big fan of LA but, it definitely has it's perks!! I love the food and shopping, the weather was perfect!!! So we were out n about and next thing I know he is looking for apartments... I guess he decides he wants to live here now.... From NY to LA..hmmmm...Its whatever floats your boat. So I guess I will be flying between the A and LA now...although I hate the 5 hour flights it's well worth it at this point! I'm still trying to figure out our status, He is not my average dinner date material...he is something more. I'm usually so anti- relationship or before getting close to anyone I pull away because I don't want to deal with what comes next..I'm use to being miss unofficial, which may sound bad but, trust it works out great! I don't know about this one just yet but, maybe I wont pull back.. Like he said this morning," Let it go mama, your good over here!...fuck it I'm falling.....

Sunday, January 11, 2009

BAG BLISS

THE LOUIS VUITTON, STEPHEN SPROUSE COLLECTION IS BACK!!!!! OH BOYYYYY...WHO DOESN'T LOVE WHEN STEPHEN SPROUSE COMES OUT WITH HIS GRAFFITI INSPIRED LV COLLECTION. TO TOP IT ALL OFF, THEY HAVE MARC JACOBS (PICTURED LEFT) AS THE CAMPAIGN MODEL!! OH, AND HE IS NAKED UNDER THAT BAG..HEHE.. NEON AND NAKED...WHAT A WAY TO ADVERTISE, SURE CAUGHT MY ATTENTION!!...THIS TIME, THE COLLECTION INCLUDEDS A GRAFFITI BAG IN MY FAVORITE COLOR.....PINK!!!! HOT PINK TO BE EXACT...WELL THERE ARE ACTUALLY 2 SPEEDY 30'S THAT CAUGHT MY EYE AND I WILL BE ON MY SUPER GRIND FOR ONE OF THEM...THEN AGAIN, VALENTINES DAY IS COMING UP AND I GUESS I CAN START THROWING HINTS NOW!! SOME OF THE BAGS ARE ALREADY ON SPECIAL ORDER, SO FIRST COME FIRST SERVED, IT IS LIMITED EDITION...........
ANYWAY....CHECK OUT THESE PICS I'M SURE YOU WILL FALL IN LUST TOO LOL...

***UNTIL NEXT TIME...LOUIE LOVE N KISSES***


IN LOVE WITH THESE TWO SPEEDY 30'S THE NEON GREEN BAG COMES IN NEON PINK!






OH AND SICK KICKS TOO!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

6:22AM THINKIN' OF U




Damn I just seen u a few hours ago when we were both in the limelight of black Hollywood nightlife. A few hours before that we were having dinner and happy to catch up on whats been missing for 2 months. It wasn't like this before... we were so platonic, I wasn't feeling like I missed u until I seen what I was missing...I guess when I woke up @ 6:22 am and realized damn, I got a thing for you pa!!! OK ...so maybe I realized this a little too late b/c now you have to catch a flight outta my city and I need to get to my 9-5....first thought is fuck it, we're cool, it is what it is I'll see him next time around. But, Before I even get one foot out the bed I text "just woke up thinking bout u!!" Not knowing what the response nor outcome would be but I was willing to take a chance. Good thing for me ur feelin' it too...All I can say is If its like that I'll be on a round trip flight babe I'm coming right back!...

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

OFF LIMITS BITCH...LOL


It's been a long time but, I haven't been up for the challenge of releasing some of my thoughts and feelings lately. What prompted me today was an interesting conversation I had with a male friend of mine who had a serious opinion about who's is off limits!!!! At first, I do admit, I had my own opinion on this subject, systematically favoring my opinion over his... AHHH I can see clear now the bias is gone.. LOL .....




So the question is.....Who is considered to be off limits??


Is it just a husband or wife because they have taken vows under God...or do others come into play? I Personally have never been with a family or friends ex partner or someone whom I knew my friend was crazy over but that relationship was 10 years ago.. I just don't believe in dating people that my close friends or family have been involved with in a serious relationship or even been with period!! My motto is there are too many fish in the sea, so go fishing else where. Right?!?! Well until today, I stood strong being my motto...Thanks friend! A good friend of mine stated, why is it that people want to put someone, "off limits" after they are over and done with them.... what didn't work for you may just work for your Sister, cousin or best friend...LOL.. I know it sounds harsh but its soo true... My ex could be my best friends husband so who am I to say hey, Bitch he is off limits...I use to be in love with him forever ago! I mean take into consideration someones feelings and how awkward it would be but, if your done with someone and you still dwell on how much he is off limits you could be blocking someone else chance for love..I know that part was corny LOL...but really this is how it was broken down to me..Now I personally still wouldn't go there b/c its just not me..but I am mos def more lenient and open minded to the decision for someone to date my ex.....shit he is an ex for a reason right!!





Until next time... I really have Mr Big on my mind so maybe this will be a double up...not sure if I want to express that yet..Stay tuned..

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

The Official or Unofficial Girl??

So Cassie has a song out about being the, "Official Girl," what does this mean exactly? Is it a tittle that we as women try 2 attain from a man to make us feel more secure? The one, that bitch, wifey, baby momma, Girlfriend, my boo ect... does it make you feel better? Does a tittle given by a man make a women feel more Superior over another, or is it just mind game to merely keep a women in her place? These are the questions that boggled my mind while listening to Cassie beg to be an, "Official Girl." If I have to ask you to be, that girl, then I don't want to be. If I'm tired of being unofficial and he is well aware of this, then why isn't he taking the initiative to make me official. My mother always said, "If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away and if he doesn't, nothing can make him stay." With that said, I've learned that a women can either be complimentary or supplementary to a man. I personally would rather be complimentary, because I'm not here to supplement a man and be strung along for his convenience. I thought it was the man that chases the women...or is it now the women that chases the man? I'm confused?!?!......is it the money, cars, clothes, that keeps us chasing and the bling that blinds us? ahhhh the land of opulence!!



OK, so what comes along with being official....hummm... more bullshit and pain that your subject to endure. So now that your official you get to hold down the throne...your the boss bitch! everything is good and he is treating you like the queen that you are...you cook and clean, fuck 5 times a week, and head game is mean....he comes home early, and your never worried about the extra shit because, your that BITCH!!! right??...wrong!!! welcome to reality official girl! Yea, you obtained what you have been yearning for, "the Tittle," but wait, it doesn't stop there...Oh, he didn't come home last night! Now your playing detective and asking who is Keisha, Tiffany and Lala, ( the unofficial girls) because you decided to scroll through his phone while he's sleep...smhhh...or you find receipts from Gucci and Louie but you don't have any new bags..LOL..but hey your the, "Official Girl." Don't Trip mama I'm sure he has story to cover this shit..and some good dick and a couple of dollars to make you forget! So basically while your on an emotional roller coaster trying to make it work..he hasn't changed..but its gotten better for him because your now his convenient girl..your official so hes not going anywhere...right? better watch out for the unofficial girls..they have tricks up their sleeves...remember, your convenient, the other girl is where he wants to be.


Unofficial Girl...yea that's me...I'm not going to subject myself to beg for something that isn't for me! If a man wants me, flaws and all, he will do what it takes to have me. I don't make excuses for men...it is what it is...they do what's best for them, no questions asked. So why would I ask to be his girl if he had no intentions on asking me? I'd prefer not to commit myself to a relationship based on pure sympathy.....nigga you can keep it! However, I will participate in a relationship with no strings attached, no surprises or expectations which, concludes in less disappointment. I still get the dinner dates, materialistic items, trips and good sex (safe sex that is), without all of the extra drama...and every right to do me to the fullest! So why subject yourself to minimal standards and self esteem issues..and why not put yourself on a pedal stool and let the man that's worth it all find you! I want to be the, "UNOFFICIAL GIRL."